eat broccoli.

a nuisance, who sent? you sent for me?

so the other day jayjay and i had a discussion about pursuit and gender roles. i know that we are in the twenty-first century, but i have some pretty anti-feminist ideals. i am going to put it out there anyway. 

i firmly believe that guys should still be the pursuers, even though current teen magazines would describe how liberating it feels for a girl to ask a guy out. but ladies, don’t you know your worth? you only deserve the best: appreciation, adoration, admiration, and the list goes on. you shouldn’t have to move a finger because the best will come to you.

and if he doesn’t? then perhaps he’s just not that into you. but if he does like you and he still doens’t do anything then this says two things. one: perhaps he needs a little nudge, some guys are naturally super shy and just need assurance. two: he’s a lost cause because you want a guy who is confident and assertive– you will not settle for anything less.

i mean, isn’t any guy who subjects himself to vulnerbility and rejection worthy enough for your consideration? this is the greatest display of confidence and assertiveness. who’s ever heard of anyone looking for someone who’s insecure.

hi my name is jane and i am looking for an insecure, indecisive, lazy boy. you don’t often come across one of these characters– i guarantee you.

remember: a guy who does not pursue you is either not into you or he’s not good enough for you. in both cases, he’s not worth your time.

“She will and she can find a man who knows her worth!
Mmmmmmmmm

(Chorus)
‘Cause a real man knows a real woman when he
sees her (when he sees her)
And a real woman knows a real man
Ain’t ‘fraid to please her (please her)
And a real woman knows a real man always
comes first (first)
And a real man just can’t deny
A woman’s worth” — Alicia Keyes

Gat. i hate being sick. nothing tastes good and i am restricted from eating so many things. i know some people just eat whatever they want when they are sick, but my family has always taught me otherwise. you can’t eat spicy stuff that may provoke the throat, cold stuff, fried stuff, greasy stuff, etc. i must stick with plain wholesome food.

anyway, i felt so restricted at my sister’s birthday party. we went to ebisu and i wanted to eat raw oysters, so for the first ten minutes i watched everybody else eat it. i stayed back and watched. and then i couldn’t contain myself so i grabbed one and slurped it up. yum. i hope it was worth it. ALSO it was a friday, so i couldn’t eat red meat. so not only could i not eat cold (although i already disobeyed this rule), spicy, fried, greasy food but i could not eat red meat.

my fault for getting sick.

i just want to put it out there…i think it’s pretty rad that my sister invited me to her birthday dinner amongst her friends. how often does your sibling invite you to their birthday dinner with all her other friends when they’re in high school?! this must mean i am cool enough by high school standards. and that’s pretty cool in my books.

i am going to gulp down some cough and cold medicine. perhaps some neocitran? or buckley’s? i wonder if there are side affects for mixing medicines…

love ya later!
–boots

…i expanded my work availability so that i would receive more shifts and rake in more dough! but a few days later i changed it back. why?

well, who ever looks back in retrospect on their life and goes: oh geez, i wish i spent my youth working more.
or do they go: i wish i spent more time with my family and friends.

i don’t want to be homesick in japan and wish i spent more time with my family and friends. because i doubt i will be homesick in japan and wish i took more shifts. it’s a possibility…but i highly doubt it.

which is why i am so excited for this weekend!
i am going to go to paintballing…work (but with winnie there it will be a hoot)…go out for fondue…work on my essay (ugh) AND MAYBE perhaps go out on sunday night.

ooh tomorrow i start my first japanese lesson! it will be exciting!!!

but what i am most excited for is bowling night tomorrow. im setting lisa up with this guy…bwhahahha.

sidenote**
lisa watched oprah yesterday and apparently…there was this guy who broke their penis in half while engaged in intercourse.
lisa says: you know, you can break your penis in half if you do sex wrong.
justin goes: how do you do sex WRONG?
- if you miss and hit a wall
- how does it break in half? the law of physics say..well, for example if i stick this fork into a wall it will puncture the wall. the fork won’t break in half.
- well is your penis made out of steel?

so guys, be careful. sex is dangerous. not only can it expose you to stds or cause unwanted pregnancy but you can break your penis in half! so the lesson is: DONT HAVE SEX.

love ya later,
boots

i woke up at 5am this morning. that’s the fifth time this week!

so that’s what brought me here on the computer at 7.  well, it’s almost 8 now and i should get ready to go to school, so i will make this quick.

 last night nicholas cooked me alfredo pasta and stir-fry.

cutest thing ever. he had all the ingredients cut up into pieces in bowls beforehand. he was suppose to cook spaghetti buttttttttttt we all know there are meat in meatballs! and the shrimp shells were all peeled off, while the celery and carrot pieces were all diced up. quite an impressive presentation. and we watched dinner in front of the tv. ‘parental control’ was on on mtv and then we alternated between ‘family guy’ and ‘don’t forget the lyrics.’

next time, the pasta can use more sauce.

okay must get ready for school now!

xox

boots

well, i hope he lives up to expectation because tonight nicholas offered to cook me dinner. today is thursday…which means i cannot eat red meat. so i wonder what he will conjure up…

i hope i dont get food posioning.
let’s all pray for me.
tehhe joking…

xox
boots

…i totally surprised myself by doing such a kick grass job tonight!
i mentioned how work chips my nails and at one point, i even comtemplated whether or not i should quit because it was really ruining my cuticles. no jokes. and my hands would always get dry so i would have to continuously reapply hand cream.

anyway, i have really small hands. i think my youngest sister (12 yrs old) have the same size hands as mine, but my pinky is shorter. it’s kinda strange. i have really small hands and feet. anyway, sometimes my hands would be so soft i’d hold hands with myself (it’s basically clasping hands together). anyway, it feels empty when i hold hands with myself. like there’s no meat. no flesh. it’s all skin and bones. and i’m not even skinny! my hands are just anorexic. seriously, they feel so weird to hold. i guess i can’t have a monorelationship with myself!

2 more sleeps until thestylespy event!!!

xox
boots

…i have practically lost myself i can’t control my eating habits!
everything is so yummy and so thereeeeeeee…

anyway!

there are a few things i am looking forward to:

monday the 10th: cuts for cancer, but mostly my mc-ing for the event. last year was such a blast i hope to have even more fun this year! but last year i did it by myself, this year i am being paired up with someone else…so we’ll see how it goes.

wednesday the 12th: chicken wings for 24cents each at oscar’s. if i am not too swamped with hwk and tired from work we are going to double date! it will be interesting to see how kale and nicholas interacts.

friday the 14th: FABULOUS NIGHT hosted by thestylespy.com!! since there inst really a dress code…i am going to dress up! bwhahaha because i haen’t really dressed up in awhile. we will all arrive in our timeless swagger. yay!

mmm that’s about all. the rest of this month will be boring.

xox

and for those that are unaware of the situation, my hs is going through a massive reconstruction to earthquake-proof itself.

everything just looks so different. walking through the halls did not give me the nostalgic feeling i had hoped for.

i am a very sentimental person. when i walked through the school i had to make certain detours because parts of the school was blocked for reconstruction. how could a former student of five years be lost in a school that was so near and dear to her? i was disappointed because the sentimental feelings i associate with my school only lies in my memories now. walking through the school is like walking through unknown territory. a stranger in a building with new students, new teachers, new classrooms and new hallways.

i miss you.