here’s my ten cents, my two cents is free!

 

a nuisance, who sent? you sent for me?

so the other day jayjay and i had a discussion about pursuit and gender roles. i know that we are in the twenty-first century, but i have some pretty anti-feminist ideals. i am going to put it out there anyway. 

i firmly believe that guys should still be the pursuers, even though current teen magazines would describe how liberating it feels for a girl to ask a guy out. but ladies, don’t you know your worth? you only deserve the best: appreciation, adoration, admiration, and the list goes on. you shouldn’t have to move a finger because the best will come to you.

and if he doesn’t? then perhaps he’s just not that into you. but if he does like you and he still doens’t do anything then this says two things. one: perhaps he needs a little nudge, some guys are naturally super shy and just need assurance. two: he’s a lost cause because you want a guy who is confident and assertive– you will not settle for anything less.

i mean, isn’t any guy who subjects himself to vulnerbility and rejection worthy enough for your consideration? this is the greatest display of confidence and assertiveness. who’s ever heard of anyone looking for someone who’s insecure.

hi my name is jane and i am looking for an insecure, indecisive, lazy boy. you don’t often come across one of these characters– i guarantee you.

remember: a guy who does not pursue you is either not into you or he’s not good enough for you. in both cases, he’s not worth your time.

“She will and she can find a man who knows her worth!
Mmmmmmmmm

(Chorus)
‘Cause a real man knows a real woman when he
sees her (when he sees her)
And a real woman knows a real man
Ain’t ‘fraid to please her (please her)
And a real woman knows a real man always
comes first (first)
And a real man just can’t deny
A woman’s worth” — Alicia Keyes

 

major sleeping problems…like, what durrrr

i woke up at 5am this morning. that’s the fifth time this week!

so that’s what brought me here on the computer at 7.  well, it’s almost 8 now and i should get ready to go to school, so i will make this quick.

 last night nicholas cooked me alfredo pasta and stir-fry.

cutest thing ever. he had all the ingredients cut up into pieces in bowls beforehand. he was suppose to cook spaghetti buttttttttttt we all know there are meat in meatballs! and the shrimp shells were all peeled off, while the celery and carrot pieces were all diced up. quite an impressive presentation. and we watched dinner in front of the tv. ‘parental control’ was on on mtv and then we alternated between ‘family guy’ and ‘don’t forget the lyrics.’

next time, the pasta can use more sauce.

okay must get ready for school now!

xox

boots

 

‘only good boyfriends cook meals for their girlfriends’

well, i hope he lives up to expectation because tonight nicholas offered to cook me dinner. today is thursday…which means i cannot eat red meat. so i wonder what he will conjure up…

i hope i dont get food posioning.
let’s all pray for me.
tehhe joking…

xox
boots

 

do you remember that friends episode when…

 

…chandler went out with rachel’s boss from bloomingdale’s and he said that he’d “call her” but never intended to because she was boring and had mascara gunk between her eyelashes? what do you do when you go on a first date and you know instantly that there wouldnt be a second?

so on boxing day when my second cousin courtney came over for christmas dinner, we were chit chatting and she told me how she’d tell a guy after the first date (somewhere along the lines of) “oh, and just to clarify we’re just friends and there won’t be a second date.” like, HOW TOTALLY BOLD! it’s the sensible and mature thing to do and the guy apparently appreciates it. but it’s so hard!

about a 1.5 months ago i went on this dinner thing (i guess it could constitute as a date) and i knew i wasn’t interested because: a) his gangster car was too gangster and i felt displaced in it b) i felt he was bragging too much and there wasnt much sincerity and c) he never asked if i was cold (and i was), but instead rolled down the windows and played loud (the beat/ first nation’s instrumental/ k-os) music. so really, i wasn’t impressed.

perhaps i should have pulled a courtney, but it’s so uncomfortable in those situations. so instead i avoided answering his txt messages. and no, i dont really feel that bad because he has a girlfriend now (according to facebook) and surprisingly, i know her! we took french together last year. i wonder how she handles his gangster, mafia-esque car aka ‘timberwolf’ haha.

tis all for now.
love ya later,
boots

 

he’s got talent…

…and now my heart.

 

no love, actually: parts 3 & 4

the secretly admired

no matter the distance, this person will always admire you. they are your greatest supporter, your number one fan. they see your flaws but loves you to bits regardless. but you’re no fool, you’ve had your suspicions. they’re great for boosting your confidence and self esteem. do you reciprocate? no, not really. for some reason you don’t think things will work out, or you’re just not that into interested or attracted to them. pk describes this as communism. to think of this as a utopia but in reality, it’s inevitable tradgey.

the secret admirer

sometimes you’re shy. and sometimes you’re bold. either way, you’re dying to know whether or not the admiree has any clue or if they feel the same way. this phenomenon is very elementary and high school-esque unless you suffer from extreme anxiety attacks or shyness. you seem to believe that no one will love them as passionately and unconditionally like you, yet you dont make a move. you may drop subtle hints here and there, or you may be excessively kind to them and give them attention whenever they desire it. in return, you just want to know if there’s a chance– whether they secretly admire you too but have been just as shy.

 

no love, actually: part 2

THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

were you foolish and thought they weren’t good enough for you? or did you not appreciate them when you had the chance? whatever the circumstance, they are the one that got away. they make you feel absolutely horrible about yourself. you’re miserable. and you blame yourself, no doubt. but what can you do? you probably spend most of your time reminiscing and then regretting your actions. they leave you with an open wound, and hopeful wishing gives you the false sense that they will return and things will be better. but that’s just hopeful wishing for ya. you can’t help but wonder if they ever think of you the slightest bit or are you the only one feeling excruciating agony. you make your friends uncomfortable whenever they’re around you and you’re a wreck. if you’re able to pull yourself together, it’s a facade. you’re still experiencing emotional turmoil. poor baby. hopefully you will fall out of this feeling…perhaps when you meet someone better– if you give yourself the chance. don’t worry, lots of people experience this phenomenon and here are some videos for proof:

you, do you remember me?
like i remember you?
do you spend your life going back in your mind to that time?
cause i, i walk the streets alone.
i hate being on my own.
and everyone can see that i really fell
and im going through hell
thinking you are with somebody else.
…chorus:
somebody wants you; somebody needs you;
somebody dreams about you every single night.
somebody can’t breathe, without you it’s lonely.
somebody hopes that you will see
somebody’s me.

i cannot go to the ocean;
i cannot drive the streets at night;
i cannot wake in the morning…
without you on my mind.
so you’re gone and i’m haunted,
and i bet you are just fine.
did i make it that easy
to walk right in and out of my life?
…chorus
good-bye, my almost-lover
good-bye, my hopeless dreams
i’m trying not to think about you
can’t you just let me be?
so long my luckless romance
my back is turned on you.
shoulda known you’d bring me heartache
almost-lovers always do.

 

no love, actually: part 1

inspired by pk’s (yes, i know her) wordpress blog, i will like to give a little blurb of the four different types of tragic lovers followed by a youtube video that describes the situation.

for today’s feature, i will talk about…

THE MESSY LOVER

they’re the ones that make you feel extravagant and like a load of crap on different occasions– sometimes, at the same time. it cannot be helped, they’re always at the back of your minds before you go into another relationship, while you’re in that other relationship (hopefully not), or when you fall out of the relationship: they will always be there. you’re constantly on-and-off with that person and you know better. you know you’re better apart– in fact, they’ve torn you to pieces. yet, to your amazement they can put you back together. the lover & hater. the friend & enemy. even after a long separation, you find yourself crying.

pk thinks this could also be potentially your spouse. i think that’s fine, as long as after a heated argument,  high affection and loud laughter follows.

now here’s a video of ross & rachel: the perfect messy couple.

 

my sweet babboo

i read an old journal of mine the other day. it still has that flowery, notebook scent with pretty cartoons on every page and coloured in pastel pink, blue, yellow and green. oh the silly mind of angela the second grader. i was devotedly in love with ivan and i vowed to marry him. i still remember those elementary school days when i’d think about that sweet, sweet ivan and how he was probably equally in love with me as i to him.
and if that failed, i had planned on marrying fabian. i was so silly!
and i think at one point i was interested in seven boys stimutaneously! oh how i sinned. (this was probably the first grade, mind you).

sally and linus, the storyline of my (elementary school) life.
if anyone were to feel the pangs of unrequited love it would be sally. she’s such a strong soldier, perhaps a loss in dignity and integrity during the battle for love, but nonetheless, a very strong soldier.
she should never, and i repeat never, be the role model of young girls. as sexist as this may sound, i still believe that girls should never chase. if linus isn’t doing anything, then sally should just take the hint: he’s just not that into her.
time and time again, vince would remind me that guys are quite shy until the 20s, and even then they will have anxiety problems; but he would always enforce that if a guy was interested enough he would do something. actions speak for themselves. plus, isn’t the assertiveness of taking action the first sign of confidence? why would anyone settle for less?

anywho, since i’m sort of talking about relationships…did anyone watch gossip girl last night?
imagnie how devasting it would be to be married for twenty years and then the husband runs off…with another man! seriously, i cannot even begin to fathom what that would be like! intense, no doubt. i wonder how often this happens…

btw, notice how i never talk about boys…well consider this to be a special entry. tahah.

okay, toodles!